Looks like Tyra’s real. Damn, wish I’d seen that episode. She really is a beautiful woman.

Guess I should post something. We talked -again- about things. She said she’d do better on time. And she probably (hopefully) will. The question is how long it’ll last. Honestly though, the real concern is that our ideas of how partners in a relationship should act appears to be totally different. I’m looking for a questionnaire so I can try to figure out her stance. And so that she can see how I feel.
(hours later…) Been thinking about it. Nothing I find online is going to apply to us. And I don’t think it would tell me anything, anyway. We don’t have anything even close to a “normal” relationship.

That’s all I want. Can I get it? It’s 1:07 in the fucking morning, what do you think? Boyfriends..girlfriends I don’t care. Doesn’t matter. The only thing that matters is how much time we are together. NOT ENOUGH!!! I thought we had it worked out today. She said she knew we were not together enough. At least, that’s what I heard. Then again, I wanted to hear it so bad she could have said anything. Called her just after midnight and asked when she’d be home. She had no idea. NO IDEA?? Why the fuck not? I know, Oh my god, it’s midnight! I’m sorry, we lost track of time. I should come home now. But no! I went off on her. I’m afraid I fucked things up pretty bad. Not because of anything I said. I’ve said it all before. But because I’m so upset, so angry. They’re watching a movie. Not very far in to it. She can’t leave because it would be rude. RUDE!?!?!? What the fuck is rude about going home to your husband who is very upset. She says I’m trying to take her freedom. NO FUCKING SHIT!!!!!! What the hell is marriage?!?! It’s a compromise on each other’s time. She believes she spends more time with me than with anyone else or doing anything else. And she does. Kind of. She spends more time with me than she does with friend number one. She spends more time with me than grocery shopping. She spends more time with me than with friend number 2. But the truth is that she spends much more time away from me than with me. And she doesn’t understand why I’m upset. She doesn’t get it. Literally. She can’t understand why I want to be with her so much. Why anyone would want to spend as much time toghether as I want to spend with her. She doesn’t want to. Doesn’t “get it.” We started talking about it this afternoon. We were both in tears practically. She said we’d talk more when she got back. That didn’t fucking last long! I don’t even know who she is any more. What can I say? Fuck it!

She got home at 3:18 AM

Sky News
No fucking way!!

I think I’m going to throw up. The company I work for has filed for Chapter 11 bankruptcy protection. We don’t have much info yet, hopefully by the end of the day. I don’t think my job will go away but I’m sure a pay cut will happen. Not sure I can take that. Anyone in the Atlanta area need a Unix geek?

This is a test from the phone. Not sure it’ll send to an email address right now or not. guess we’ll find out.

Below is the text of a letter to the editor of the AJC. I posted the whole text because things have a habbit of dissappearing of the AJC website. Original page.

Monied America lacks moral goodness

Congratulations, monied America: You wanted your gated communities to keep out the poor, to protect yourselves from crime, to separate yourselves from undesirables. You took the high roads and built your gated communities on them so you would stay dry and clean while the stormwaters of filth and despair flooded their neighborhoods.

You did it. You kept out the poor, you concentrated the crime in the poor neighborhoods, effectively ensuring those neighborhoods would remain poor and broken. You separated yourselves from the undesirables.

And then you left them, to die in attics and on rooftops and in the streets and in the disgusting halls of commerce and sports. The richest nation in the world is the most destitute when it comes to true moral goodness. God could not bless this America at all.

SAM MARIE ENGLE
Engle, of Atlanta, is director of the Kenneth Cole Fellowship in Community Building and Social Change and senior program associate in the Office of University-Community Partnerships at Emory University.

Well, what do you think?